So,
yeah, I really did fuck it up… the one woman in my life that made coming home from my my shitty ass job and going to school everyday seem worth it..is gone. And it’s my fault for being an unfaithful, inconsiderate douche… I’m fighting so hard to bring her back to me, but I don’t know if I can… she says to give her a couple days to think, but I can help but think that solidifies she’s gone.. coming home to a room and looking at the side she slept on, it’s empty, empty of all her clothes, but mainly empty of her, just like my heart is… I just need someone to curl up to and hold me while I ball my eyes out, but she was that one person, and now that she’s gone all I have is my pillow to hold. If I hold the stuffed animals she gave me it just makes it worse because they were from her. I… I just can’t help but hate myself, everything about who I’ve become, I’ve lost her and I don;t know what to do without her… Sabrina, if by chance you read this, know that you are my world and that the line of hope that I have that maybe you can see it to give me one last chance is the only thing keeping me sane right now… but please, please realize how much you mean to me, how much our love means, how much I am fighting and am willing to change just to be with you… how much the happiness we give to each other means…